You know those people that always knew what they wanted to be when they grew up? Those people that had a plan of how they wanted their life to map out. What order they wanted to do things.
I was never one of those of people. Growing up I had no idea of what I wanted to be when I was older. I wasn’t really bothered about getting married and I hadn’t really thought about if I wanted children. All I did know is that I would be a worker. I get bored if I don’t have something to focus on.
People had commented on how good I was with children so this is the path that I decided to take. I completed childcare qualifications and enjoyed my work but it was always like something was missing.
Then a few years down the line along came motherhood.
Motherhood changes a person. It puts everything in to perspective and readjusts your priorities. Whether you want it to or not.
For me I feel like motherhood has been a secret calling. It’s made me into the person that I am today and I feel like I am more me now than I have ever been before.
My whole life is built around my family and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Becoming a mother has made me appreciate my own family and all the little things so much more.
It’s true what they say there is no love like a mothers.
Nothing makes me prouder than seeing Olivia-May achieve something new and nothing brings more joy than seeing her happy. Not every day is easy but the highs certainly make the rare lows worthwhile.
I want to show her the world, to teach her, to protect but most importantly be her best friend. I would pretty much give up anything for motherhood and to have my family by my side.
I’m more patient, more understanding and kinder. Motherhood has made me a more rounded person and I feel more confident in who I am and what I believe.
We may have ‘done things backwards’. Having Olivia and then getting married. My may not be home owners. But I couldn’t be happier.
I feel like motherhood was always meant for me. I feel complete.
It may not be for everyone, and I’m certainly not one to judge, but it is for me.